Sobbing in cinemas
This is so out of date, but I've been meaning to write this post for a while now. Sometime last year (yes, told you it was long), I went with my girlfriend to watch this show "10 promises to my dog"... It was a Japanese show feature the life of a dog with its 14 year old owner.The girls mother, herself dying of cancer (or something) told her daughter to make these 10 promises to her dog, as a commitment to keeping a dog till its dying day, though in actual fact, the mother was trying to convey what was in her own heart. Quite a touching movie actually, and I agreed to watch it only because I had a soft spot for dogs, and the directors previous movie, Quill (also about a dog) was so touching it secretly moved me to tears! But lets just pretend I never said that OK.
So walking into the cinema, I had a rough idea what was to come. My girlfriend was just completely charmed by the poster of the ever cute dog poster above. Talk about effective marketing. Everyone else was busy watching the latest blockbuster, so the cinema was pretty empty, only filled in two rows. Not surprising, since the movie is in Japanese only. What WAS surprising was I was one of only 2 guys in the cinema. Oh boy, I've had it this time.
Now, I've never been a fan of horror movies. I go to the cinema to be entertained, not spooked. I don't like sad themed movies too. I go to be cheered up. But this was like the epitome of sad movies. I mean, the mom dies in the first 30 minutes, and you just KNOW the dog will die at the end of the movie. So I was battling how to follow the movie without getting all chocked up with the little poochie dies!
So when the part finally came.... "sniff.... sniff" to my left.... "sniff sniff...." to my front and back, and lo be hold, to my left.... my teary girlfriend sniffing too! Gosh..... man.... I gotta hold it together... Stop watching... think of something else... do math.... grocery list... hot women.... exploding tanks... anything but that girl and her dad crying over the aging dog, finally taking its last breathe while reminiscing of a its life.. sometimes loved.. sometimes neglected... at a time forgotten.
I managed to stop short of tearing.... but I was fully sunken into my seat by then.. but being amidst 2 dozen sobbing women.... I was determined not to look anywhere left or right! But I was wondering if that other guy was crying or not. This was supposed to be a sad movie, not a horror movie... and nothing scares me more than women crying! Oh boy..
That was the last sad movie I watched... and I wont want to watch another anytime soon!
Car Accident
Damn it! And I thought this year was supposed to be a good year! Bugger... bugger... bugger.... And to think I got this for going into work on a Saturday! I thought hard work and diligence is supposed to be rewarded! Not rammed in the a$$ by some 40' trailer. Damn.... And all HE got was this small itchy dent!
All of this just 2 weeks away from Chinese new year! Damn...
Resolutions for the New Year
I know its so cliche to make new years resolutions, and yes it is already 10 days into the new year so I'm kinda behind. I've been doing lots of thinking, but very little posting, and perhaps have been less than faithful in updating my blog. So here are some of the things I resolve to do this year. Some are pretty standard:
1. Loose some freaking weight!
This has to be perhaps the most cliched of them all. Everyone complains about this, but I really need to loose some mid span.
2. Get some fashion sense & a new hair cut
I am embarrassed to admit, I have been sporting the same haircut since I was in high school. Its the same 'good boy' barber cut that I have been having since.. I dont know.. kindergarden? PLUS, I have almost ZERO fashion sense. Just goes to show how outdate and complete uncool I am eh? I think its high time I progress from the t-shirt and jeans to something more updated.
3. Blog more honestly
Something doesn't feel right any more in the way I blog anymore. It feels less raw and frank. I think to some extent, I have subconsciously self cencored on some of the things I write, to somehow 'fit' into the overal blog that has slowly grown in size over the years. which is crazy really. So this year, its back to basics. Write what I feel, write what I think. I will swear if I want to, I will whine if I want to. Problem sometimes is that I sometimes start to reason with myself over my feelings, asking "Should I be feeling this way? Should I write such things?" Worry that later when my anger or frustration or whatever is gone, I might no longer mean what I wrote. Also, I've been holding out on writing the more edgy thoughts & stuff that that I feel like letting off my chest. Well, to hell with that. This year its no holds barred baby, and I will strive to write whatever, however shocking or crazy it may seem.
4. Do some crazy stuff
I think I am getting too old too soon. While most young adults struggle to keep a good head on their shoulders, I think I am suffering from the opposite. I feel that perhaps I have been too much of a goody two shoes. While I know I need to be grown up and mature given my own family struggles, I do feel there are things you can only do while you are still young. Heck, I haven't even been adventurous enough to change my freaking hair style! What does that tell you? I think I maybe I did too much growing up that I accidentally started growing OLD, at least in mentality. So this year, I need to grow younger.
