Forthnights

Oh shucks...



I'm thinking of her again. I dont know why, but I just am. Promised myself not to, but its like telling a person not to think of an apple. The word 'not' does not register in our heads.



If you want someone to come on time, dont say "Don't be late." Say "Come early."

Because if you mention late, chances are, they'll more likely to be late.





So how not to think of her?



There are only a few women constantly on my mind. 3 to be exact. My mother, my girlfriend, and her.



2 is company and 3 is a crowd. So I'm trying to eliminate 1, and I guess she'll have to go! But after all these months, that infatuation has not died down, even though I have not seen, met, heard or spoken to her. In fact, it has been  a self imposed total disconnection from everything related to her.



But perhaps this self imposed exiled has made my mind wonder off too far and backfired. Instead, I find myself wondering even more about how is she and the temptation is there to pick up the phone and call. Aaarrgh.. the blessings and bane of modern technology. Its like porn on the internet. Its tempting because its so easy to get.



I'm starting to wonder if perhaps she's not as great as I made it out to be. Maybe my heart has been playing games on me. You know how when you like someone, all their flaws dont seem to matter? Or like when you dont like someone, and everything they do just seems to disgust you. So is she this truly amazing girl, or is is my truly blinded heart?



oh well...........