Forthnights

A Gentlemen?

I have been told many times by people around me that i come across as very gentlemen like. Especially people who just met me. It seems, i give out the first impression of a well mannered, polite and perhaps a litttle innocent person. I have been told this repeatedly by new friends around me. But i have also been told that after a while of getting to know me better, i am not what i seem to be.

This happened again recently during my industrial training, where my fellow trainees had that perception of me. But 6 weeks down the line, they came up to me and told me that they didnt expect me to be like that. When i asked them what they meant, they said that on the exterior i appear quiet, very mild mannered, innocent and the more reclusive type. They didnt expect me to be too knowledgable about matters of society, sex and life in general. They kind of expected a 'good boy' straight from the farm/kampung. Wide eyed and trusting.

The most flattering part of it all was when they said that i keep quiet often, but actually was knowledgable in many things. Hehehe... though i dont think i deserved all those praises, it did make me feel good for a day. I found out that keeping my mouth shut actually spoke volumes more than talking will ever do. I must admit i actually held my tounge more with these friends than i normally would, trying to listen more than talk. Little did i know that my silence spoke louder than my words.

But i am at a lost actually. I dont know why people keep on getting that gentlemen perception on me. In all honesty, i am anything but one. Ask the people close to me and you would know that i am just a regular guy who monkeys around just like any other monkey/guy. But then again i guess the fact that i speak a little softly and not rowdily does play a small part. Im sort of in limbo. Im far from your super macho tough guy with that manly beard and no way am i your new age metrosexual with a peddicure and designer cloths. Im not your standard gentleman holding out doors for women and, impeccably groomed and charming with words. Im not your regular skinny science geek with big specs and an encyclopedia in hand.

What I am in my own eyes is this; i'm a jeans and t-shirt guy that hates to dress up. Im not talkative except with people im comfortablw with. I am very dry in my humour and enjoy good company. I dont speak foul language and try to behave accordingly in different social settings. When im meeting strangers, im polite. When im with my friends, i joke a little. When im with my loved ones, i just let it all hang loose and pig out! hehehe..

Im not ignorant to things that go on in life, or about sex or society. I have seen a little of the good and the bad of life, but i dont go around annoucing that i have seen and learnt these things. I choose to keep them close to my chest and reveal them to people i trust and people who are willing to share. i do not go around boasting how wise i am because that is the hallmark of foolishness! So friends, if you find that i am not what i appear to be, just know that i am what i am. Dig deeper and you'll find more.

posted by Compulsive Blogger @ 10:39 am Comments: 1