Forthnights

Last day

The minute I stepped back into Sheffield, I felt I was home in away. The entire week spent walking around Paris and the southern part of England was enjoyable and refreshing.. but there there is nothing like the feeling of returning to something you are familiar with, someplace you call home, even if only for 3 months. I will tell you this; I grinned wider and my heart felt happier greeting the sight of Sheffield city than it was when I first laid eyes on the Eiffel.... because the Eiffel represented a physical wonder, a monument of human achievement... but sheffield was special to me for different reasons.. more special reasons.... sweet memories.. of people, of fellowship... of friends...yes... the friends, gosh I will miss them.

What a beautiful sunny Thursday morning it is, the kind that promises a wonderful day ahead, for my last day here in the UK, and here at Sheffield. I confess I am reluctant, I am heavy hearted. A friend said it all when she said these 3 months have been more like a honeymoon! I hadn't really thought of it in that way, but then it made everything make sense. It seems like all I have been talking about is leaving Sheffield.. instead of returning to Malaysia.. though the two are really one in the same. I guess that betrays how I truly feel inside.. As happy as I am to return, I am more reluctant to leave.

But I am more ready now that I was a week ago. I supposed I have to some point learned to accept the inevitable. It does not mean I wont be sad though. I wonder if there will be any tears shed, or how I would feel when the time comes..

But for now.. all I have is this wonderful day left ahead of me.. and the present is a gift for me.. It truly has been a fantastic three months.. It has literally been the time of my life here.. I will stop complaining about how short it was.. I will stop wishing I had more time... I will live today appreciating every moment.. every gesture, ever smile, every touch, every pat on the back, every laugh... And when all is said and done.. I will leave, carry all these memories with me. I will not say this is goodbye.. to my friends.. or Sheffield.. because I have hope that I will see it again. It will never be the same again.. but thats okay. If I live everyday, even if its just one day to the fullest, I will have nothing to regret.

Have a good day my friend.. I hope i Do!

posted by Compulsive Blogger @ 5:17 pm Comments: 0