Im not even sure what i am doing anymore... I dont even know why i fight with her. I dont know why i bother forcing her to take her medication, or why i refuse to let her have her way. Im in some dark place, some long forgotten tunnel.. there's light at one end, but the more you try to get to that light, you trip, you stumble, you fall face first on the floor. You try feeling around you, but all you feel is the cold harsh feeling of nothingness. No wall for you to cling on.. no path for you to take. Just an abyss of darkness.... just the sound of your own struggling feet, just the feel of your aching heart. You scream out in pain, in agony, you hope someone comes along and lead you by the hand. But all you hear is echoes of your own voice, bouncing back at you, telling you that you are indeed alone, with no one and nothing around you. After a while, you forget why you want to go to that bright end in the first place, you forget how you got into this hell hole. You forget why you are fighting this loosing battle, only that you have to. You fight because that seems like the only thing you can do, before surrendering to the darkness.
I dont know.. im lost, im cold, im alone,
posted by Compulsive Blogger @ 10:56 pm
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