Songs on my computer
I realize that most of the songs on my computer have remained unchanged for the past 5 years. Listening to some of them really brings me back down memory lane. I used to do my work on this very computer, go surfing on the net, chatting with friends over icq and listening to mp3’s. Memories of some of the things that I did during my secondary school years all come flooding back. Doing late night work on the environmental awareness project and listening to music with Saiful and playing computer games. It’s funny that a piece of hardware can remind me of so many things that now seem forever gone and things that will only remain a memory. Much has changed since then and the person I am today is not the same as the me that first used this computer.It’s silly to wish for time to be reversed, but sometimes I do. Not to change the things that have happened, but to relive some of those moments that are so clearly recalled by my heart. The heart always remembers the feelings of those moments, but the mind forgets and the details get blurred. Eventually, all that remains is a memory of a certain feeling of long ago you know you had at that time, but you forget what it was about. Maybe I’m just living in the past. Listening to these songs on my computer, my mind ever turns to my friends from those times. The ones you were close to, the ones that you liked and enjoyed, the ones you found amusing but weird and the ones you wanted to be closer to. My mind ever turns to these people wondering if they ever remember me or if they think of me even if it’s only occasionally. I wonder if they will ever guess that there is a friend they know that thinks about them and wishes somehow to be closer to them, but never acting upon it. Will they ever guess that here I am cherishing those very brief moments and occasions that for some reason has stayed in my heart for a long time, refusing to be forgotten? Of course not! People move on and memories fade away for most. Yet here I am thinking of them.
posted by Compulsive Blogger @ 12:57 pm
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