WHere have all the good luck gone
I have been having horrible luck.Motorcycle broke down. Had to push it to the repair shop. Cost RM 165, which I didn’t have. Friends had to come bail me out.
Failed 2 of my papers. It cost RM 100 to resit the paper, and lots of studying. I got caught in the rain while coming back from work. It cost me an hour plus I still got soaked wet.
Mom gone into a relapse. Her doctor reduced her med dosage a lot, and she has been secretly not taking her medicine. She’s totally not herself now. This morning, she wasn’t wearing any pants. When I asked her why, she said she needs to wash her pants. Keeps on talking about going away and she’s messing up the house a lot. I find my clothes on the floor, pots and pans upside down, books lying everywhere etc etc blah blah blah.. Told her ill bring her go exercise, she says she cant because her leg has glass.
Big fight with girlfriend. Had a big long argument with me girlfriend about my family situation, her feelings etc. Says she cant take the pressure of staying in my house. Mom giving her a hard time it seems. Also she says she wants privacy with me, which we hardly get any of anymore. Everything that she does with me, my mom or dad has to be there too.
Short on cash. Going back and forth 6days a week, going picking up and dropping girlfriend = money. Eating dinner = money. Repair bike = money. Me = no money. Get it? Why wasn’t I born a rich mans son?
Stressed out- kind of short tempered recently. Mom and girlfriend on the receiving end unfortunately. Feel horrible, but trying to control dat temper. Fail exam = stress. Cant tell dad I failed = stress. Travelling far distance = stress. Fearing for life on the road = stress (just saw an accident happen in front of me yesterday morning). Girlfriend unhappy = stress. No money = stress. Mom mentally ill = ultra stress.
Low self esteem. NO car = low self-esteem. Big fat pot belly = super low self esteem. Exercise with no visible results = frustration
Thing that have been going right for me:
Failed my papers. Now I can resit and get an A! hahahahaha.
Haven’t died. Despite travelling 1600 kms over the pass 4 weeks on motorbike, im accident free.
Make new friends. Recently made and strengthened a few friendships in work and at home.
Cant think of anything else for now.
posted by Compulsive Blogger @ 2:37 pm
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